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Name: Eugene
Location: California, United States
Gender: Male
Interests: automobiles, photography(candids/weddings/landscape/portraits), to be a transparent christian, airsoft, paintball, karting, all sports, pool, guitar playing, working out, poetry, sleeping, and traveling(this one i just got), counterstrike
Expertise: sarcasm, being a jerk, speaking without thinking first, ballbuster
Occupation: not student yet
Industry: Legal
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Yahoo:  gundam_zaku
Member Since:
2/3/2004
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| it is true that when everything is going great, i tend to look in the mirror and think, "wow, i did great!" and when things are not going well, i look out and wondered who to blamed for the misfortune.
i am reminded today that when things are going well, look out the window, look at the Lord and the people around who made it happen. and when things are going in the pooper, look in the mirror and think about what i have done!
the Lord had renewed my faith not just in Him, but in people, but that was in the beginning of the wkend at 930am. now, i am disappointed in people once again, which reminded me that only the Lord does NOT disappoint...people...eventually, will disappoint you! | | |
| so i just talked to my sister, tina, recently and she asked me a question she's never asked before, "so, how've you been? dating much?" and my reaction in my mind was, "shoot, has it been THAT LONG since i talked about dating that my SISTER is a bit worry about MY "love life"? WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON? tina never asks about that part of my life because (i think) she knows i got it down cold! it's quite easy for me to meet someone and if i have enough patience and NOT RUSH IT, i could get into a relationship pretty easily...but i could also fall out of one pretty quickly.
my coworkers kept telling me it's because i don't know what i want, my family tells me i'm not ready, my life tells me i don't have time for one, WHAT IS THE LORD TELLING ME??????
i really don't know!!! i've been asking in prayer about it for a while, the Lord have been silent. maybe i'm not listening hard enough, or maybe i'm just pretend i didn't hear Him because it's not what i want to hear. so i gave up! if He's willing, i'll run into her! so now i just focus my energy on GREs and LSATs, and badminton as well as photography. and i think it shouldn't be this hard to find that "special one"...if He allows it. so i'm not even gonna bother looking because i know when the time is right according to Him, she'll just fall right into my arms, it could be during a badminton tournament where we're playing mix doubles and we're both diving for the same shot, or on a photoshoot and we're both diving to catch the same camera falling from a china made tripod (who would use it anyway???), or we're both diving to catch that same box of flash cards full of GRE vocabs.
i wonder if diving for something is the only way that a godly woman would fall into my arms....accidentally????
i could purposely set up these situations but i would be mad if it didn't work out. if we both miss the shuttle in a badminton tournament, i'd be pissed. if the camera hits the ground i'd be more pissed. if those flash cards spread all over the floor...well...I AIN'T PICKING THAT STUFF UP!!!
or i could tell my loving father my problem...and now he's trying to "pimp" me out asking all his friends if they have any "potentials" left. LEFT? what am i, a used ford pinto? sheesh, thx a lot dad!!!
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| first i have to praise the Lord for a successful event without anyone getting overly "enthusiastic" about the competition, excluding myself, which i will explain in a bit. also want to praise the Lord for brothers and sisters who helped out, especially jacky for organizing and reffing games, auntie wendy and uncle thomas for opening their lovely home for us to use and enjoy the fellowship we had while there.
my team made it thru the first two rounds, got into the finals, and lost. the games were pretty even, each and every team had experience players and some inexperience players. i considered myself inexperience because i am completely and utterly out of shape. to run thru a game for 20minutes nonstop, is very very challenging. i was out of breath to the point that i am literally fighting for air, as in.....fighting for air. it's worst than having an asthma attack.....oh yeah, it's like THAT!!!
second game was a bit easier because we played with kids, so i didn't have to work so hard, and when there's a female in possession of the ball, i had already made up my mind not to guard her or to defend her all together...others thought i was nice, but in reality i was just taking a breather...kekekekekekekekekeke :)
in between my games i also help jacky ref, and it was tough, cos i know i missed some of the calls, but i caught most of them :)
by our championship game, my legs were done, i scored two points on a drive and my right lower leg tensed up, i knew it was over. so i took the next two baskets pretty easy by jogging back and forth and only playing defense which i love the most...yes, i never told anyone, but i love denying people of making their baskets :) that feeling of rejecting someone is way better than scoring on someone. it's great to say, "um...i'm sorry but....um......NO! not in my house!!!"
because there were refs, the games were not as heated as last time, and people sorta "appeal to authority", which is a fallacy in logic and reasoning as i learned in a philosophy class, but oh well...hehehehe.
the best part of the game was when i'm not playing, and when i'm not reffing, but when i'm chatting and joking with the aunties or congratulating the uncles for a game well played. it was a great opportunity to fellowship with the chinese congregation because i rarely get a chance to, even if i do attend their service, there's not much talking allowed...hehe
funniest moment, when matt chiu's team was playing the crossroad teams and all the parents were cheering for the crossroad team and they were booing matt chiu as he was trying to make two free throws, i thought that was a kodak moment and i hope someone got it on video!!!!!
matt chiu had an exceptional game, and so did ryan. peeps to watch out for, joshua cheung, and matt chang. once they get a few more years, it's over, they will rule the CBCSJ competitions!!!
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| tonight's blog is not so much about badminton, but what badminton made me realize.
since two weeks ago, the end of winter quarter, i haven't been playing as much badminton because the team practice has moved to early afternoon, which is impossible for me to attend because i have a job. and because of spring break, i haven't played in a badminton PE class for two weeks. so i've only been going to campbell community center to play with church people on saturday nights which is has a no-smash rule for me because of the difference in skill level. needless to say, i have no where to do footwork drills and exercise what i've learned so far from badminton coaches at deanza college.
well after a two week break, i was extremely excited to go play and i did tonight and it was awesome. i was totally into every game i've played without any mental distractions...besides the cute partner i had (LOL). and after being exhausted from playing 8+ games in two hours, i realized one thing.
i realized that when it comes to anything i like, either hobbies or even in terms of dating, if i get a lot of it, in this case, play a lot of badminton, then it would feel like work to me and i would lose interest. and if i get to have a break and come back, i'm refreshed and i get my head back into the game!!! that's the reason why i have so many hobbies (currently reconsidering whether i should get another r/c car after having sold all 5 of mine 5 years ago)!!!
with this attitude, dealing with hobbies is one thing, but dealing with relationship is another. after thinking back of my past relationships, i realized that i tend to get tired/bored of it after 1yr and 3mos of dating. generally my interest in that person dies and i tend to...disappear. my attention is elsewhere. since i would still want to settle down someday and start a family, how the heck am i suppose to do that, to spend the rest of my life with this one person, day in and day out, when i know i'll get tired of her in 1yr and 3mos exactly?!
it's gonna be hard to find "that one" that could keep my attention for ...say....the next 33yrs...because by the time i'm 65 i don't think i care....hahahaha
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| i try to be as sensitive as possible because i know the photographers at church are all volunteers and they are doing this because they love the Lord, and not to get praises from men, but ultimately to praise the Lord..........especially in a baptismal service! and also, this is ONLY MY OPINION, but this might not be obvious to some people.
i find them......."in the way". i understand that some people might not have the best equipment or the best eye to shoot their love ones getting baptized. but shooting any church event should be carried out like a wedding shoot, which could also be a church event as well :). the photographer is in stealth mode, meaning they are obvious enough for most guests to notice, yet they don't get in everyone's line of sight. so while they're able to get super awesome shots of the subject, the congregation are also able to take decent pics from where they're sitting. yes, there is a way to get shots up close and it being crystal clear, yet standing quite a distance away!!!
this past sunday was awesome, and it always will be awesome to see people getting baptized as a declaration of their faith in the Lord. and while it's great that we do have awesome brothers who are good in photography volunteered as church photographers, i find them redundant in a baptismal service. why? 1. because the people getting baptized will probably have family and friends who wants to take pictures of their own. taking that one single picture might be small to others, but for them, it represents a way that they "participated" in the event. you wondered why so many people take pictures at weddings. it's probably not because people like collecting wedding photos (tho there are some), but it's a way for them to remember the day/night and how they have participated. if it was my daughter/son getting baptized, oh yeah, you bet i'll be there elbowing the photographers aside just to get that shot myself, that's how much it means to me :) 2. being a photographer in an event where the subject is being confined in such a small space (i.e. the baptismal pool), it's almost unnecessary to be moving around the stage because there's probably only one angle you can shoot from. at this time i would like to applaud Matt Chan for being the best positioned photographer that afternoon!!! he wasn't moving at all, he was static in one spot. he also cared whether the congregation could see and made it his priority!!! way to go, brother, proud of you!!! way to represent! his spot was best because it was directly facing all the people "getting dipped" and also close enough to include the pastors as well. this is one way of "being close enough, but far away"!!! he was close enough to get clear shots of the subjects, but far away to not block the views of others. also close enough to not use a flash, because IN MY HONEST OPINION, it is quite distracting when a flash goes off!!!!
so how do you get a close enough shot, not use a flash, but being far enough to not block the views of others??
1. you could do what Matt Chan did! be considerate! if you think of your brothers and sisters first, you'll find a way to get that shot without standing right in front of EVERYONE!!!
2. get a dslr camera body that could reproduce decent images at high ISO (800-3200), a decent telephoto lens (70-200mm f/2.8 vr), and a pair of very steady hands, and if you don't have a pair, get a aluminum/carbon fiber tripod. at high ISO and with a big constant aperture on the telephoto lens, you won't need a flash, which means you won't disrupt the viewing of others with blinding flashes, and you won't have to stand close for that flash to be effective.
i do understand it's also disruptive when you have 20-30 people rushing toward the stage at the same time, but if you set a boundary, then those who wanted to take pictures could stand closer, but yet far enough so that everyone else in the congregation could see as well.
sorry, i was just very very very teeny tiny bit annoyed when one of the photographer stood in the middle of the stage on top of his uselessly short step stool to take a picture at a particular angle which another photographer had already taken. that's just double redundant, and completely blocked my shot from the back i might add. but at the same time i could tell they were trying their best so while being critical, i appreciate their effort and most of all, their love to serve the Lord!!!
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